An Erraich

Fanfiction thoughts.

Fri, 22 Aug 2008 02:26:17 GMT

It's that time again. I've been reading a lot of labyrinth fanfiction recently. I just want to say right now that two things are true:

1) Sarah and Jareth are their own worst enemies. They have enough emotional issues between themselves without Jareth's brother/cousin/ex-lover/mortal enemy stealing/raping/trying to marry Sarah. Or whatever. And please stop inserting 194i673956 original characters into your fanfiction. If I see Gill and Brandon in the last chapter of your fanfiction more than I see Jareth and Sarah, it has ceased to be about Labyrinth.

2) Fundamentally, what Henson was trying to tell us is that Jareth is lonely, and when it says that the Goblin King was in love with the girl, he was being serious. Watch the "Within You" scene. Watch the end scene. Jareth <3 Sarah. And yes, he is an ass, and yes, he is overbearing, but ultimately, he wants to be loved by her. So writing him as if he doesn't care one way or the other what she does is bullshit.

3) Having a nice build to the ultimate culmination of their love and romance is good. But can we keep it under 10 chapters before we have *some* kind of satisfaction? 53 chapters of "I can't possibly tell him/her how I feel because OH NOES then what will happen!?" is boring. Besides which, since when do either Jareth *or* Sarah worry at ALL about speaking their mind?

Thank you.

Fri, 22 Aug 2008 02:01:07 GMT

Ahem.

For your reading pleasure, a rant.

Here we go.

Your vet is not McDonald's, they are not serving you as quickly as possible, but as well as they can for the sake and health of your pet. If this is quick, then that's good, but if not, be patient.

Your vet does not come with a money back guarantee. She does the best she can with the knowledge she has based on what you tell her and what she can deduce from the animal. Sometimes what she tries does not work. Sometimes she has to try something different. That's the way it is. Get over it.

Your vet is a business, but it's not a store. We're not an auto repair shop, we're not selling perfect animals and we're not here to open your dog up and see what's wrong. We're also not selling custom made animals. If you can't deal with the fact that your cat is going to claw your furniture, your dog is going to chew your shoes, and both of them are going to pee, poo, and barf all over the carpet, then get a goldfish. Although I have to warn you, you're going to have to clean the tank from time to time.

Your vet is not Walgreens. Don't call after not bringing your animal in for like 5 years and expect her to give you whatever antibiotics or pain medication or narcotics you want. Also, don't expect her to cheerfully allow you to buy all your heartworm prevention, flea control, etc from some online black market highway robbery (yes, those places, 1-800-Petmeds and other like them, are STEALING from the vets, who already are severely underpaid) when you haven't had the decency to even vaccinate your damn animal in a decade.

Seriously.

Tue, 01 May 2007 17:50:49 GMT

Name:	Joanne
Birthdate:	5-20-84
Birthplace:	Gainesville, FL
Current Location:	Gainesville, FL Exciting, no?
Eye Color:	Blue
Hair Color:	Strawberry Blonde
Height:	5'5"
Weight:	Ha ha ha
Piercings:	Ears
Tatoos:	Nope
Boyfriend/Girlfriend:	::weeps::
Overused Phraze:	Huh.
*FAVORITES*
Food:	Raw fish. And chocolate things.
Candy:	See above
Number:	Um.
Color:	Blue
Animal:	Dogs, cats, horses, the usual girl things.
Drink:	Milk
Alcohol Drink:	Chocolate Martinis
Bagel:	Sundried tomato
Letter:	C + J
Body Part on Opposite sex:	Wait, what? Well, I admit I have an ear fetish. O_o
*This or That*
Pepsi or Coke:	Ew.
McDonalds or BurgerKing:	Burgerking. But ew.
Strawberry or Watermelon:	Strawberry
Hot tea or Ice tea:	Ice
Chocolate or Vanilla	Chocolate
Hot Chocolate or Coffee:	Coffee
Kiss or Hug:	Yes, please
Dog or Cat:	Yes, please.
Rap or Punk:	Ew.
Summer or Winter:	Summer. I hate cold.
Scary Movies or Funny Movies:	*scary and* funny. so there**
Love or Money:	Love
*YOUR...*
Bedtime:	Later than it should be, especially if CJ is in "talk mode"
Most Missed Memory:	Most everything having to do with my grandfather.
Best phyiscal feature:	Um. I guess my eyes. Or my boobs.
First Thought Waking Up:	Oh God, not again!?
Goal for this year:	Do not suck.
Best Friends:	Katie, Julie, CJ, Destiny, Nick E.
Weakness:	C+J. And also pretty anime boys. And Crispin Freeman's voice. And Troy Baker's.....self. good thing I'm not Superman.
Fears:	Losing my friends, losing myself, losing my sister.
Heritage:	Scottish!!!!! Also english, Welsh, Irish, Cuban, A bit of Italian.
Longest relationship:	ONLY relationship: 5.5 years.
*HAVE YOU...*
Ever Drank:	Yes
Ever Smoked:	No
Pot:	No
Ever been Drunk:	Yes
Ever been beaten up:	No
Ever beaten someone up:	No
Ever Shoplifted:	No
Ever Skinny Dipped:	Yes. With Girl Scouts. How's that for a fetish?
Ever Kissed Opposite sex:	Being straight, yes.
Been Dumped Lately:	Not lately.
*IN A GUY/GIRL*
Favorite Eye Color:	Dark
Favorite Hair Color:	Dark
Short or Long:	Yes please
Height:	Tall!
Style:	Clean
Looks or Personality:	I like slender boys, and I like pretty boys. It's the anime fetish again.
Hot or Cute	Either or
Drugs and Alcohol:	Alcohol okay for fun, but no drugs plskthnx
Muscular or Really Skinny:	In between is good.
*RANDOMS*
Number of Regrets in the Past:	Oh lord.
What country do you want to Visit:	Japan, of course. and Italy. And Greece, and Egypt.
How do you want to Die:	Peacefully
Been to the Mall Lately:	Yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	When I am inside watching them, yes.
Get along with your Parents:	Yes, very much.
Health Freak:	Somewhat
Do you think your Attractive:	Yes.
Believe in Yourself:	Most of the time.
Want to go to College:	Been there.
Do you Smoke:	No
Do you Drink:	Sometimes.
Shower Daily:	Yes.
Been in Love:	Yes.
Do you Sing:	Yes.
Want to get Married:	Yes.
Do you want Children:	YES
Have your future kids names planned out:	Not really.
Age you wanna lose your Virginity:	Um.
Hate anyone:	No.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 00:21:28 GMT

I am feeling pretty darned good today, with very little to worry about for once.

Abbey left on Tuesday to go to a short term, live-in rehab program. I will miss her very much, as we are unable to have any contact with her for at least several weeks, but at least she is getting the help she needs. And with any luck, my mom will be able to stop worrying a little. I'm worried about *her*.

I am going to begin what will hopefully be a successful workout regimen over the next three months or so, in preparation for having to get into that Sloth dress for the FMA cosplay at Jacon. I would like to look decent in it, not just okay. It's a beautiful dress, actually, and if I can make it look really great, that would pretty much rock. ^_^

CJ's gonna be Hughes. He has plans to have Destiny draw a "tattoo" of his "daughter" on his chest. XD

Spring break is coming up next week, than heavens. I am going to stay at Dad's beach house in Ormond for a couple days, which is exactly what I need, after all the drama over this last month. CJ had it right when he said he thought I'd just "had a really bad month." It hasn't been the best overall.

Other than that, not much to tell. The journal has been quiet, but that's because my life has been so focused on things that take too long to type out. O_o I don't know where I'd be without earthdragonette to keep me sane. But, boy do I miss talking with her on the actual phone.

Finally, wish me well on that biochemistry test I took yesterday. I am worried about that class, but I busted my butt to study for it, and I will be sad if I don't do well. I will be sadder if this class prevents me from graduating at the end of this semester. I am so tired of being in school. >_

Sun, 25 Feb 2007 05:54:29 GMT

Why, oh why, oh WHY do I have such an obsessive personality?

I watched two episodes of Fullmetal Alchemist. TWO. And Roy Mustang was only in ONE of those episodes.

And now I am completely and totally on a Roy Mustang/Travis Willingham trip-and-a-half.

But, GOD they're awesome.

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 03:40:58 GMT

I was in such a good mood today. SUCH a good mood. Then I went Christmas shopping. Actually, the shopping was okay, except that every three minutes I had to listen to my sister bitch about the fact that she can't go and flit around with her effed up friends. (Which, as my brother and I pointed out, is rather her fault for being stupid and getting punished in the first place.) Then after, she came and stayed at my house for a couple hours whilst my mom was out shopping for us-the-kids. My sister was happy for one epsiode of House...then the bitching began. When is she getting here? What's taking her so long! OH MY GOD, I'm all tired and stuff!! Then my mom came, and was tired and frustrated and wanted a hug, which Abbey had to be *PROMPTED TO GIVE HER*...

I am just so sick of this teen-angst bullshit. Like she's the first kid in the universe to get grounded. Who the hell cares that she doesn't get to be with her stupid redneck friends? Maybe she shouldn't have lied about where she was going and blah blah blah. I'm sick of her melodramatic bullshit, and I'm sick of the self-righteous stick she has up her ass. It makes me want to beat the shit out of her, but I know even that wouldn't do any good. "OMG, guys, I was only being the biggest bitchwhore in the history of the world! It's not like I *did* anything! Why can't she just get out of my life!" Ugh. I know she'll get over it. She always gets over it, and she pulls this shit every like...I dunno, full moon or something? But what the *hell* is she thinking pulling it at Christmastime? My mom has no family, she has no husband, she has no parents. She has her children. We're it. How can she be so goddamned self- centered!

::Sigh:: Obviously, this isn't my problem...except that it *is*, because everyone makes it my problem. Everyone wants to tell me their shit, and what can I say, "No mom, you can't talk to me?" It's not like she has anyone else to effing talk to.

Christ.

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 19:23:10 GMT

On Falconer's new cd, "Northwind."

Can we say political commentary, anyone?

I squish it much. Mathias's voice is audio secks. Stefan is teh god of guitarz. I am a happy fan.

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 06:58:01 GMT

So in the wake of the Eragon movie, there's a tremendous backlash, not only at the film, which was admittedly lacking in many ways, but also at the book. There's a rant to follow, so I'll cut it. Read if you like.

So the big thing is that the books are "formulaic" and "unoriginal". Now, I don't read a lot of fantasy, because...let's face it, most of it is complete shit. But I am familiar with Tolkien and MacAffrey, the two that are most often referenced when ripping into Eragon. First of all: These are two of the biggest names in fantasy, probably ever. It's really obvious that Christopher Paolini is going to be influenced by them when writing, especially as he was so young when he started the novels. (He was 15. I'd sure as hell bet most of these people can't write that well *now*, let alone when they were 15.) Second of all, it's not as if he lacks his own original ideas. His characterisation is awesome (much better than Tolkien's, let's be honest with ourselves.), even if his description doesn't always do it. He inspires actual emotion in the reader, something that most fantasy authors completely fail at. I can't generally read fantasy, and do you know why? Because most of it is self-righteous, emotionally fucked-up bullshit. (pardon the language) Paolini wrote what he knew, and he wrote it well. Among all the crap that gets put on our shelves these days, I don't understand why people feel the need to rip this one apart.

On the other hand, he has two novels on the best-seller list and he's only 19...so maybe that's enough right there.

As for the movie: The biggest tragedy was poor editing. Eragon the novel is *not* PG. It's PG-13 or even R. There is some seriously horrible stuff that happens, from time to time. It seems to me that they cut it at the last minute in order to make it PG (it was unrated up until the week it was actually released) and that the story suffered. I have high hopes for a director's cut that will be much better. Can we say The Abyss, anyone?

All right. End Rant.

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 19:56:43 GMT

I'm going to see Eragon this afternoon. ^^ I'm *very* excited, and hopefully will not be at all disappointed. I don't think I will. I think they have put a tremendous effort into this film, and I appreciate the number of relative unknowns that are in here. I always feel like casting unknown actors means you cast them for their talent, rather than for their star power. Because, let's face it: start power does *not* equal talent. (Paris Hilton, anyone?)

Wai. So sleepy. Did not sleep well last night, and had to be in Micanopy by 7am for work today. O_o At least I got to leave at one. Small favours, I suppose. Longer post once I've seen the movie, no doubt.

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 17:42:16 GMT

Thought on continued reading of House!fics:

To say that Gregory House took a halting step towards someone is not only an overused image, but it has almost no meaning for the character. He's crippled in one leg. He walks with a very dramatic limp. *All* his steps are halting. Try harder next time.

Thank you. I must study now.

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 03:28:42 GMT

Considering how long it's been since I posted, there is so much I could say. But for now, as it is late and I really should in fact be asleep or at least reading microbiology, I will say only that:

1)Halloween yay. I have red contacts for my vampire costume. Yay.

2) Final Fantasy 12 in, like a DAY. I cannot even begin to contain myself.

3) I effing LOVE the book Eragon. And now I cannot contain myself for the movie, which comes out at Christmas. Eragon is teh Hot. (Refer here to my icon.) You will go to the website and you will see that I am right.

http://www.eragonmovie.com

Beware of a lot of flash, so possibly quite a load time if your connection is slow. Watch trailer. See images. Love the dark brown eyes. Julie, I predict that you will dig Murtagh on site, but I haven't gotten to him yet in the book, so I can't vouch for him. Only for Eragon. ^^

That's all for now. I hope tomorrow I'll be able to catch up a little better.

V for Vendetta...again

Wed, 10 May 2006 05:23:32 GMT

Because it just rocks *that* hard. I wanted very badly to see it one last time on the bigscreen, because I think its days up there are very numbered around here anyway. It only has two times listed, so I went to the 10:25pm showing with Maggie, from work. She had never seen it, but I needed to see it again. It's just the kind of movie you need to see at least twice, I think. There are so many layers to it.

Somehow, if possible, I think it actually affected me *more* strongly than it did the first time. Perhaps it's the sleep deprivation. After all, it is almost 1am and I've been up since 5am, so I'm probably a little more than kind of tired. But it might also be just that when you watch it again, you spend less time trying to make sure you understand the plot, and so you simply absorb all the amazing and wonderful symbolism, messages, undertones, the *layers* of this movie. I am at a loss as to how the same men who were responsible for the atrocities that were the second and third Matrix movies could produce something like this, which I am considering to be one of the most beautifully rendered and best movies I have ever seen. But I have a feeling it has a lot to do with Hugo Weaving, and the fact that he's not a charicature like he was in the Matrix movies, but a *character*, and a damn big one at that. It's true what Evey says at the end, he somehow manages to encompass so many things, and so many aspects. As he says, he is more than a man, he's an idea.

My favourite line is this:

"No, what you have are bullets, and you'd better pray that when your guns are empty, that I am dead. Because if I am still standing, you will all be dead before you can reload." (that's V)

The fangirly part of me wants to rub Hugo Weaving's voice all over my body. The actor in me wants to rub his acting all over my brain. Does that make sense? Or is the the tired talking?

Either way. Some things struck me tonight in ways that hadn't struck me before. Particularly the scene with Evey in the rain, and the way that they intersperse the images of V in the fire. I loved the similarities and yet the differences. Fire and water. Created differently and yet the same. Opposites, and yet equally powerful in their own right, and somehow, they can compliment each other.

The "bullet time with knives" scene actually took my breath away this time around, and at the end when I saw all the "V's" marching on parlament, I actually felt as if my throat had closed. Agh!

When I got into the car after, Live was still in the player. I'm glad I was listening to "Run to the Water" today, because suddenly I couldn't help but feel it was a song for V and Evey, in whatever capacity you like best to think of them. Lyrics are below for your convenience.

Run to the Water
Live

Oh desert speak to my heart,
Oh woman of the earth,
Maker of children who weep for love,
Maker of this birth.
'Til your deepest secrets are known to me,
I will not be moved.
I will not be moved.

"Don't try to find the answer,
When there ain't no question here.
Brother let your heart be wounded,
And give no mercy to your fear."

Adam and Eve live down the street from me,
Babylon is every town.
It's as crazy as it's ever been,
Love's a stranger all around.

In a moment we lost our minds here,
And lay our spirit down.
Today we lived a thousand years,
All we have is now.

Run to the water,
And find me there,
Burnt to the core but not broken.
We'll cut through the madness
Of these streets below the moon.
These streets below the moon.

And I will never leave you
'til we can say,
"This world was just a dream,
we were sleepin', now we are awake."
'Til we can say

In a moment we lost our minds here,
And dreamt the world was round.
A million mile fall from grace,
Thank God we missed the ground.

Run to the water,
And find me there,
Burnt to the core, but not broken.
We'll cut through the madness,
of these streets below the moon,
With a nuclear fire of love in our hearts.

Yeah, I can see it now, Lord,
Out beyond all the breakin' of waves
and the tribulation.
It's a place and the home of ascended souls
Who swam out there in love!

Run to the water,
And find me there.
Burnt to the core but not broken.
We'll cut through the madness
Of these streest below the moon,

With a nuclear fire of love in our hearts.
Rest easy, baby, rest easy,
And recognise it all as light and rainbows
Smashed to smitherneens, and be happy.
Run to the water (and find me there.)
Run to the water.

Wow, there's more lyrics in that song that I realised. XD Oh well. If you read them, *thanks*. Let me know what you think, plskthnx. ^^ *Especially* Julie and Imouto-chan.

Sleep.

Tue, 09 May 2006 23:54:04 GMT

Hmm...Day two of my week off before I have to go back to school. I found out last night that I did indeed pass all my classes, and so I am quite pleased. I would have loved to get something better than a C+ in fizix, but I suppose at least it's a C+ and not just a C or a C-. In the worlds of fizix and organix, one must take what one can get, it seems. The only one I'm really really annoyed with is lab. B+? The hell? I got like a perfect score on pretty much every lab report. ::flails::

Anyway, though. Week off. And, I found out Laura from work is in my summer class. Looks like we'll be palpating cow vaginas together. XD I love being pre-vet. Shweeeeeeeet.

So yeah, overall, I'm feeling pretty good, despite the fact that I'm going to have to get used to waking up between 5:45am and 6:45 am throughout the entire summer, and anyone who even remotely knows me knows that 1) I am not a morning person and 2) I do not do well on sleep deprivation. Pray for me, all.

In the world of Things I Frequently Obsess Over: I saw the E3 trailer for Metal Gear Solid 4: Guns of the Patriots today. Uh? I am increasingly convinced that Hideo Kojima drops large amounts of acid before penning the plots to these games. The first one invlolved a floating telepathic teleketetic crazy man in a gas mask. The second involved what for all intents and purposes was a vampire, plus some immortal beings who apparently were created from the patriotism of Americans or some shit like that. The third one had a ghost who led you down a river of all the people you've killed throughout the game. The fourth? Who the *hell* knows. Questions: Why is snake suddenly older than Col Campbell? Why has Meryl not aged a day? What the hell is Naomi whining about *now*? Will Quinton Flynn's Raiden own me as much as he did in MGS2? The answer to the last is looking like yes, since he's apparently become the crazy amazing hyper cyber badass ninja. Who kills Metal Gears all by himself. On the downside, he Looks Stressed. On the upside, his hair is still long and platinum, and his eyes are still really pretty. And the Stressed Look actually kinda gives him an Air of Yoshitaka Amano, not unlike the cg rendition of The Final Fantasy Warrior that appears in the Origins version for PS2. And of course, Amano makes me all gooshy. So.

Another thing: Gankutsuou is becoming so good just about now...but I will say no more, because I plan to make Julie watch it. ^^

Finally, I got the new volume of Red River (Anatolia Story) in the mail today. I was hoping it would make me happy, but actually it't just depressing me! The main couple is *sucking* at life!

If you don't know, Red River is an historical/fantasy/romance manga I'm reading, about a girl who gets pulled back into the ancient Hittite Empire by some freak-ass Queen who wants to use her as a sacrifice so she can cast a curse on all the royal family except herself and her son so her son can become king so she can have power blah blah blah political intrigue blah blah. But of course Yuri, the girl, it rescued by Kail, the third prince, and he takes her under his protection, and tries to send her back but then gets thwarted several times and then they fall in love, enter Unresolved Sexual Tension.

It was plastic wrapped and imprinted with the "Parental Advisory" stamp, which made me all hopeful that they were *finally* going to Do It. Because let me tell you, the sexual tension between those two at this point is enough to stop a semi. Plus, we're already in Volume 12. I mean, come on. Touya and Aya had done it by volume 7. By volume 12, I'm pretty sure they already had that baby on the way. GET WITH THE SHOUJO PROGRAM. So anyway, Yuri's becoming all horribly depressed because one of their dear friends framed *herself* for the murder of the King and was hung (She did this so that Yuri would be absolved of any suspicion....because she wanted her to marry Kail and maybe dispel some of this sexual tension and freaking MAKE BABIES OR SOMETHING). But Yuri's all freaking out, and so she wants to go home, because she can't take all the killing and betrayal and whatnot. I'm trying to cut her a break for this, because she has been through a lot so far, and she's held up remarkably well, especially for a shoujo heroine. She even learned to use a sword, ride a horse, generally take care of herself to some extent (gasp). But I have to admit, she is starting to irritate me. She's being WISHY-WASHY! She's *never* wishy-washy! It's why I liked her so much! Because she's like "This is rough! And it sucks! But I will be brave, and do what I wish, and achieve my goals!" and I'm like, "Yey! The feminist movement!"

But now she's all wishy washy. She's all, "Oh...I really love Kail and stuff...but you know...I should go home. Oh, parting with him kinda makes me feel like my heart is being slowly consumed by rabid weasles, but it's really the thing to do."

Meanwhile, Kail isn't doing much better. He's gone all freaky man-possessive. Turns out the parental advisory is because he practically *daterapes* her in one scene, and poor Hadi (her handmaid/confidante) has to come beg him to freaking *stopitwhatthefuck!?*. I am mostly forgiving him as well, because it sort of stems from a bad dream, and then he like weeps over it afterwords, but...I dunno. So everyone's pretty much sucking at life, and of course the next volume doesn't come out until July. :deep sigh: I know she's not going to go come, since there are 28 volumes in all, but you know...it's a pretty shit place to leave it for two months, imho.

Rabid weasles, eh? See what happens when I get up so early?

Stuff and nonsense

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 02:47:32 GMT

I want to start out by saying that Sess/Kag offends everything in me that is good and true. Not only are you assraping the Inuyasha/Kagome relationship, which is a beautiful example of pure and true love, and acceptance in it's most basic form, of loving someone because you love them, not because the world will think it's ok, or because it's easy, but because you were meant for each other...

It also assrapes the Sesshoumaru/Rin relationship, which is a beautiful example of growth, of understanding, of unadulterated and unabashed adoration, of learning to accept that things aren't always the way you thought they were, and that sometimes fate knows what's best for you.

Yuck. Ick. Ptooey. I know tarkheki feels me here. Right?

Have my ecology final tomorrow morning. I have studied quite the bit, and once again, feel fairly ready...of course, that didn't help me much the last two times, so we'll just have to see what happens. Maybe Tellkamp will take pity on us for the final. At least it's not cumulative. ::shudders::

In other news...

For a long time, I've had an original story in my head, which I've wanted very much to write, but have felt that I owed it to the characters and the readers to finish things like Heir To My World and Falling Into Grace first. Still, it's never left my head.

Maybe some of you know the hippogryph myth. Gryphon and Horse are supposed to be mortal enemies, yet the Hippogryph comes from the union of these two. This has always intrigued me for several reasons, many of which you can all probably guess. One: The half-breed effect. Like Dante and D and Inuyasha and Soren before him, the Hippogryph is trapped between two worlds. Two: Forbidden and possibly tragic love against all odds. Duh.

Of course, these are generally animals, which was something I had worried about for sometime. How to make it not weird! Ta dah! Leave it to Arwen to save me. I decided, and asked permission, to model them after her characters, Tempest and Tsunami, whom are Pegusus and Unicorn, respectively, but whom have generally human features. See Here for Tempest and Here for Tsunami. Please take note that both characters are quite nekkid, in an artistic and tasteful way, and don't click if you don't wanna see the parts. You can always just go to http://www.arwenart.com or http://arwen-herself.deviantart.com and browse the galleries, although you're not likely to see anything that's as "descriptive" as the character pages...

Anyway! I want to model them off that...I hope to someday do a two story series, one about the Gryphon and Mare, the other about their son, the Hippogryph. Before that day, though I'll need to pin Arwen down somehow and see if she has any advice about how to do the beaks on the gryphs...that's the only part that's bothering me. Full on beak, like Brooklyn from "Gargoyles"? (Well, he is my favourite character!) Or more like a "nose beak" like the Rito race from The Lengend of Zelda: The Wind Waker. (Well...Zelda does rock hard!) Something else entirely? Hmmm....
I'm also wondering about putting bird claws for the gryphs' hands. I think it may be necessary. And very possibly quite badass. XD

Anyway, I am thinking on this just now because, in my search for a name for my Suikoden V hero, I ended up on a welsh baby names website ( I found out that 'Howell' means "alert one". Psh. Howl's parents wish. XD) Anyway, I stumbled across this name: Gryphin. Now, I think this would be an awesome name for the Hippogryph. Sure, it seems obvious at first, but the thing is, that though there is also a welsh name, "Gryphon", which means the mythological beast, that spelling, Gryphin, means instead, "strong in faith." This strikes me for two reasons: one, the sound of the name is a reminder of who he is and where he comes from, rather like how Inu no Taisho named his son "Inuyasha" which of course means "Dog Demon". But at the same time, I like the "faith" meaning. It seems like sort of a prayer from his parents that he will be well, and that the world will change and accept him. I've been enamoured with it ever since. ^^

Finally, I got ADVENT CHILDREN TODAY!! Sephrioth is a GOD. And I would want to have Vincent's babies, but I guess that's probably a sore subject with him. Still, I settle for humping his leg. ^^ Vincent=SO PRETTY. And, I have a heterosexual girlcrush on Tifa. Whee.

I especially love when Sephiroth gets his wing, and is all, "I won't ever be just a memory" and then wraps himself up in it and disappears. And Crispin Freeman!Rude and Quinton Flynn!Reno were totally the New Dynamic Duo. Waaaaaiiiii.

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 17:37:59 GMT

Actually, I'm not having such a bad time of it. The real thing is simply that I am dreading the fact that I have to go out and get the rest of my IP data this week. I'm gonna try and do half today and half tomorrow, and then I'll finish the writeup tomorrow and Thursday. It's just that the first half of it was so BORING and TEDIOUS, it makes me want to *weep*. Plus the semester is over in just over a week (next Wednesday) and I am so READY. I am very glad that I only have one final on finals week, and at least it's on Monday, so I'll be finished early. Then after that it's a couple weeks off before I start in on Intro to Animal Science. I'm going to have to learn to get myself up in the morning like I did back in high school, because there's a decent chance I'll be working in the am on the days I'm not in class, and they just decided yesterday that they'd like us to get there half an hour earlier than we open on weekdays, which means I have to be in Micanopy at *7:00 am* when I work in the mornings. ::Weeps:: Oh well, I'll suck it up. I did it for four years, I can do it again. I'll be investing quite a bit in those Doubleshot Espresso things, it looks like. XD

And then my Julie-chan will come, and it will be GOOD. Oh, the GOODNESS it will be.

I saw Christina Watanabe today, a very old friend I've known since 6th grade, but have sort of fallen out of touch with over the last year or so. She offered her sympathy over Andy, and pointed out that boys are stupid (which I've noticed recently). Andy has been alternatingly all right and completely retarded. We're trying the friend thing right now, slowly, just over the phone so far, because I think both of us would regret losing the friendship we had before we had anything else. We can still talk very easily about things that we used to chat about, like games and movies. But then occasionally he will get into "us" and usually say something insensitive and stupid which makes me feel rather like shit. I guess boys really are stupid. Even my dad can't explain them to me, and he's been a boy for sometime by now.

What can you do?

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 17:04:58 GMT

First of all, please see This post on the Riku Fans LJ community. Beware of the need to change your pants/reupolster your chair. You may not want to look at this if you're in a public place, as it may cause you to hump the computer screen. It is not actually Riku, but it *is* a Naked (though covered) lifesize sleeping Sephiroth. Julie, we will find this store when you are in Japan. WE MUST!!

I. LOVE. HIM.

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 13:35:23 GMT

Well, it's been...4 days of being single, and I think I'm doing fairly well on my own. Of course, it's hard. It sucks like crazy. But...I'm getting through. There's a lot of up and down. I'll be okay, and then I'll start to feel depressed. But, at least there are the okay bits as well. I've been trying to keep myself busy (Kingdom Hearts 2 helps a lot with that ^^), and to think of the good things.

I actually talked to Andy on Sunday night. The first part of the conversation was pretty much me ranting at him about how stupidly he handled the whole thing and whatnot. Which he took like a...well, I would say like a man, but...

But the second part was actually just us talking, like we used to, about movies and stuff, particularly V for Vendetta, which is a really excellent movie, btw. That was cool, actually. It made me feel pretty good, because I know I would miss having him to chat with almost as much as anything else; we always had *really* great chats, and it made me feel like maybe we could still be friends.

I almost said "I love you" when we hung up...but even that didn't make me feel too sad, somehow.

Single Again...

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 13:34:15 GMT

Last night, Andy broke up with me.

Honestly, I didn't know what to make of it. It seemingly came out of nowhere. Earlier that day, he had called me and told me that his boss was out of town until Tuesday, and that I should come to his work and hang out that afternoon. I asked him if he wanted to go on a double date with Katie and her boyfriend Paul, and he said yes. That night, I got off work late, and I had had a bad day, and I was in a bad mood. I was pretty snarky at him, but then I felt bad and I told him I was sorry and I was wrong. But when I met him at my house, he couldn't seem to let it go. He said he wasn't angry, but he was acting so distant.

And then, as he was leaving, he said, "I'm leaving, and I don't know if I'm coming back."

He said, "I think you love me more than I love you. I love you and I care about you, but you're not the one for me."

The horrible thing was, he didn't change how he acted towards me at all. I was devastated, I hadn't seen this coming at all. And suddenly, he's telling me he doesn't want to be with me, and this has been on his mind for a while. I told him I didn't think it was fair for him to voice these concerns now for the first time, without giving me the chance to try to work through them, as couples should do, but he wouldn't relent. And yet, he's holding me and kissing my forehead the same way he would if we were together and I was sad because my dog died. He's telling me he loves me and cares about me. And I don't know what it means. I can't understand why, if that's true, he can't at least give us the chance to work through things.

I find myself at a loss now...this relationship encompasses more than five years of my life. He's so deeply entwined with my life than I am not sure how to even begin to move on. He's all around my house. So many of the things I enjoy, we used to enjoy together. I feel like threads from my life are caught with him, and it's unraveling as he walks away from me. He wasn't just my boyfriend, he was one of my *best* friends. We were friends before we were anything more, and I don't want to give up the friendship almost as much as I don't want to give up the companionship, but I don't know what will hurt more: being with him and *not* being with him, or just being without him completely.

Another thing that makes it hard is that he did this once before, a *long* time ago, when we were 18. He'd been holding stuff inside, and then suddenly he just broke up with me. And then a week later, he came back to me in tears. I think if a stupid, tiny part of me weren't hoping that that will happen again, I could move on all that much quicker.

Julie says take it one day at a time, and I'll have to try. It's hard because there are so many things around me that remind me of him, and I'll think I'm okay, and then suddenly I'll see something dumb, like the Samurai Deeper Kyo manga, which he liked so much (more than me, really), and I'll think about him. And then my stomach hurts and I want to cry. None of my normal comforts could help me last night, because most of them just made me feel lonely and unloved. It's stupid, but I feel like no one's gonna love me again, because I'm not beautiful the way that people want. I'm not thin and shapely. I don't know what to do. I don't want to have to tell people we're not together. I don't want people to ask me about him and have to tell them we broke up.

One day at a time. The first day is scary already.

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 16:31:26 GMT

I am so frustrated-yet-vindicated right now.

Okay, for anyone who doesn't know: For the last few days, I've been dealing with this really stupid problem at school. Basically, they won't let me register for classes because they want me to agree to graduate as soon as possible (which would be fall). I want to extend it to the spring, because I would have to take several very difficult classes all together in order to graduate in fall, and I *really* **REALLY** need to boost my GPA. Taking Microbiology plus a lab that meets twice a week, *plus* biochemistry, *plus* Animal Physiology, with a lab that meets for four hours, is not going to be conducive to doing well in *any* of these classes. I wanted to spread them out over the next *three* semesters, rather than just over the summer and fall. Plus, I only wanted to take one class over summer, because I wanted to be more open to do stuff with earthdragonette when she comes to visit. Well, after talking to an adviser at the Academic Advising Center, and emailing with the Dean of the College of Liberal Arts and Sciences, I was no closer to getting what I wanted. They just kept hardnosing, "Graduate in fall, graduate in fall." They told me I still couldn't register, though, until I went to talk to Dr. Wolff, the Zoology Department's undergrad advisor. So I went this morning.

This is where the vindication comes in!

He completely agreed with me! He said it was ridiculous for them to try and force me to take that many challenging classes together, and he agreed that I would do much better, and much more likely to give my GPA the boost I need, if I spread the courses out. Luckily, his word should be the last, and I should get to just take the one course over the summer, plus just two in fall and two in spring. I am so happy! Now it's just a matter of waiting for the Dean to respond and remove the hold so I can register.

IN YOUR FACE, UF BEURACRACY!!!

(Booya)

Postscript

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 04:22:28 GMT

Hi all.

I just came back long enough to say that anyone who cares about the new Kingdom Hearts game and wants some images to make sure they are completely foaming at the mouth by the time Wednesday rolls around, please go Here to see a whole buttload of images, starting with Riku renders and official art right at the top! I have to point out, as well, that when I saw this one:

http://www.psi-kicker.net/assets/KH2/armed-Riku.jpg

I actually was compelled to like...hug my computer screen or something. Or hump it. Whatever. I actually made an aborted motion towards the screen. He *must* be the son of Sephiroth, to have such a strong effect on me. XD

Also, someone from the community pointed out that in his basic render (the second link from the top) you can see that he's wearing black boxershorts under his jeans. My GOD IN HEAVEN, has anyone ever been as great and wonderful and HOT as Riku? Well, only Sephiroth, and he has an unfair advantage.

Maybe I could just sleep till Wednesday?

Fizix my butt...

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 04:03:34 GMT

Fizix!!! I got a perfect score on my homework? Yeah, with a *lot* of help from my friend Ankita...without whom I would never pass this class...and never would have passed the last one. O_o Anyhoo.

What else? Well, I went to watch my friend Joel and his band and the newly rebuilt Napolatanos. I wish I could say I enjoy the food there better, but it's never been my favourite Italian place around here. I always like Nero's and Carrabbas better. (Carrabbas, if you happen to have one around you, has like the best shrimp scampi in the history of the universe.) Anyway. Mr. Ainsworth...that is, the band, they were really awesome, as they always are, even though they had to do a lot of covers because that's the sort of gig it was. Joel told me he hates doing cover gigs. "I don't get a lot of artisitc satisfaction from doing other people's music." he said. I think I can see that. I write a lot of fanfiction, but I do have a deep and intense yearning to crack down and start writing my original piece that's been floating around in my head for so long. Maybe that's why all my fanfictions are so...odd. XD

What else? Well, I've been watching a new anime series called "The Twelve Kingdoms." It was recommended very highly by an artist on DeviantArt known as QueenoftheCute. (See her gallery Here) I was encouraged by the voice cast as well, Dave Wittenberg, Richard Hayworth, Joshua Seth, and of course, my dearest Johnny Bosch are all in there. ::squish:: It's a really interesting series so far. Hardcore fantasy stuff, and it's based on a very famous series of novels by a Japanese author. It is dense. There's no such thing as a filler episode here. And I admit it took me a few episodes to warm up to the main character, mostly because she goes through hyper-whiny and hyper-bitch phases before she becomes truly cool and likeable. Of course, I argued with myself that her reaction was actually quite natural for the situations she finds herself in. But then, I don't watch anime for realism. XDDD Still. Good series. I rocketed through the first season.

What else? Well, first of all, Kingdom Hearts 2 comes out on Wednesday, but I'm sure I will gush about that when the time comes. Right now, Amy (the roomie) is playing through Fire Emblem: Path of Radiance, which I have played through once already. I'm enjoying watching her, because she is learning from my mistakes and accomplishing things I missed out on before. So that's cool. One thing that's the same is this one character, Soren. In that game, you get a lot of characters, and so which ones you really use for the fights and make awesome is going to change somewhat between players. Amy and I are enamoured with Soren, though. Okay, first of all...Soren has long black hair. Score one. Second of all, he's a magic user. Sweet. Third of all, he's got teh angst. Doanne yikes teh angst. But finally, and here's the kicker, because this is my greatest weakness of all: he's a half-breed. Yes, in the grand tradition of Inuyasha, Sephiroth, Dante, and perhaps most notably, Vampire Hunter D, I have fallen for yet another halfbreed.

Okay, it works like this: in the universe of the game, there are two main races: beorc, and laguz. Beorc are pretty much humans like we are. Laguz are like...sort of a combination between animals and humans. That is, they combine animal and human features, and can transform into an animal form. So like, there are three types, basically: bird, beast(cat), and dragon, and like, the bird tribe, when it "human" form, have wings and can fly, and the cats have ears and tail. The dragons are the most normal looking, except they all have pointed ears, and they all have a red symbol of some sort on their foreheads... Soren is half and half. I am pretty much certain he is half dragon, because he is very delicate, and he has the red mark. Another side effect of the dragon blood is that apparently he lives a very long time. I'm not sure how old he is, but he does get *very* offended when people call him "child", so one can only assume... I am so obsessed with him right now, you have no idea. Well, maybe Julie does. Anyway.

Here is a picture of him:

http://cubemedia.ign.com/cube/image/fireemblem_041604_x13_1082137495.jpg

He is so pretty. And he will smite you. With badass magics. I want a plushie.

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 18:39:34 GMT

Even though I was feeling kind of low last week (see my post on My DeviantArt Journal), I am feeling somewhat better now. I seem to have worked through my disappointment at not getting cast in "The Chalk Garden" out at the Chief Theatre, and am focusing instead on my excitement at seeing Johnny Bosch again at Metrocon in June, which I would have had to miss had I been in the play. I'm hoping earthdragonette will go with me, so we can play together at a con before she disappears into the land where Otaku are made for two years or so. (I am confident she will be accepted.)

I am also feeling better now that my ecology test is off my shoulders, although I'll feel even better still once I finish my lab report tonight. Yuck. Lab reports. I suck at writing them. Oh well.

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 03:19:24 GMT

I got another new userpic! XDDDD This one is Edmond Dantes, the Count of Monte Cristo, Gankutsuou style. I lick him. Isn't he wonderful?

Okay, so he's angry and bitter and hellbent on revenge and might possibly be a vampire and one time he stabbed some guy's eye out slowly with his knife. That just makes it even better. ::squeezes him:: He is so smexy.

Oh yes, and also, Natasha, my dear tyrlis126 you must read This Comic. That is all.

new userpic

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 19:33:19 GMT

I adore my new userpic. XDDDD Isn't it precious!? Please look at it and enjoy it.

Sephiroth is my one and only. He is the greatest and the wisest and the best. He is TEH UBER SEX. I want to rub his wing all over my body. Cloud is silly. (Sorry, Natasha. XD)

kthnx.

Megacon

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 04:03:16 GMT

I went to Megacon this past Saturday in Orlando, and I had a freakin' blast! Lots of awesome things to do and see. Go see my pictures here:

Megacon 2006

I know it's a long link. But click anyway, and let me know what you think!

PS: Aoshi pwns EVERYONE. Details to follow.